ive been drinking
what the hell is going on with my life lately? work is shit, family is shit (well my mother as always), and now relationship is shit. WHAT IS GOING ON? This year was suppose to be better. Its the same. I’m being overwhelmed with everything and I’m doing my best to keep it together but the seams are starting to wear.
Does he love me? Do you love me, baby? have we gotten old? have we grown apart? I don’t want to feel these things and think these thoughts but my mind has wandered. I can see you wanting to be free. I see it in your eyes. I see it in the way you look at me. I’m beneath you, and you are watching me drown. You have that blank look, like nothing is there. like its drained out of you. I ask you but you say no. Are you being honest? I’ll never know till you actually leave. What are you afraid of? What are you waiting for? Are you scared you might actually need me? I’ve been through this too many times to throw myself at your feet and beg. I swore I’d never be that weak girl again. If you walk away I’m not going to chase after you. Either that or man up. I could take that next step so easily with you. What was the promise ring for? We have everything else, why not make it real? I’m about to just say screw it.
"I found the one, he changed my life
But was it me that changed?
And he just happened to come at the right time
I’m supposed to be in love
But I’m numb again
Whatever it is,
it feels like it’s laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror
Whatever it is,
it’s just sitting there laughing at me
And I just wanna scream
What now? I just can’t figure it out
What now? I guess I’ll just wait it out (wait it out)
What now? Please tell me
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